Yesterday was Mother’s Day and I told my boys the only thing I wanted from them was a BIG, genuine hug! Two of them are teenagers and the many, random hugs of their younger days are too few for this mama. They graced me with my my request and it was the perfect gift. I told each of them that I LOVE being not only a mom, but THEIR mom and I am so proud of that role. I have had many talks recently with my 16 year old asking for grace as I figure out how to ‘mother’ him and let him grow up at the same time. It is HARD!
I found myself reflecting (once again) how hard it is to juggle being a work from home mom and being present for my family when needed. The reason I work from home is so I can be at home with my kids, but sometimes the lines get blurred. Does that make sense? This poem says it all for me…
“My hands were busy through the day.
I didn’t have much time to play
The little games you asked me to,
I didn’t have much time for you.
I’d wash your clothes.
I’d sew and cook,
But when you’d bring your picture book
And asked me please to share your fun,
I’d say, “A little later son.”
I’d tuck you in all safe at night
And hear your prayers,
turn out the light,
Then tiptoe softly to the door…
I wish I had stayed a minute more.
For life is short, the years rush past.
A little boy grows up so fast.
No longer is he at your side,
His precious secrets to confide.
The picture books are put away,
There are no longer games to play.
No good-night kisses, no prayers to hear,
That all belongs to yesteryear.
My hands once busy now are still
The days are long and hard to fill.
I wish I could go back and do
The little things you asked me to.”
WOW!? That totally helps me remember perspective in the juggling act. I am living the ‘no longer is he at your side’ moment with my boys. They are older and now it is me that must go to them. I must be ready to ‘catch’ them when they are ready to talk. Believe me…it’s tricky with teen boys! I don’t want to be so caught up that I miss those moments with them. I want to be available.
My greatest joy is being a wife and mom. Is it yours too? Do you feel it’s hard to ‘juggle it all’ too?